shit. my gastric is pain. fuck.

and this is my cute friend. lol.

i know this is very lame but i talk to her very funny lol.

len len says:
yw my gastric very pain also sia
yw says:
same same
yw says:
lol
yw says:
i pain very long already
len len says:
die la shit
yw says:
why die ?
len len says:
pain ma
yw says:
LOL
yw says:
go drink milk
len len says:
lol
yw says:
why you lol me sia
yw says:
really go drink milk
len len says:
cos i hate milk
len len says:
lol
yw says:
but milk good for gastric
len len says:
haha i wan drink ur's
yw says:
why you so disgusting one
len len says:
HAHAHA i wan to disturb u only
len len says:
but i really gastric pain. no joke
yw says:
you tahan first
yw says:
you never eat ?
len len says:
i did. i ate b4 i meet u. i guess is our lifestyle
yw says:
that's how many hours ago -.-
len len says:
haha u are so cute
len len says:
ok love u muack
yw says:
what's so cute ?
len len says:
cos u wan to reply me. if not i close the conversation
len len says:
LOL
len len says:
joking
len len says:
cos u care for me
yw says:
why you so er xin one
yw says:
LOL
len len says:
LOL fuck u :(
yw says:
i joking la
len len says:
haha ok go and play ur poker now i know u very anxious
yw says:
im not playing poker now

C O N T I N U E .....

yw says:
you not going to sleep ?
yw says:
tomorrow you going tpy
len len says:
LOL who says ?
len len says:
LOL
yw says:
just now you say one
len len says:
haha i will call u when i wake up k
yw says:
okay (:
dont wake up too late
len len says:
haha okie
yw says:
i cannot stop talking
yw says:
later you close my conversation
len len says:
LOL!!!! i never close la
len len says:
hahahah
yw says:
LOL
len len says:
go and do ur homework!!
len len says:
lol
yw says:
i finish already
yw says:
i anyhow find a few pics
yw says:
lol
len len says:
but i tot need alot ?
yw says:
dont care la
yw says:
also not my hw
len len says:
haha now u know
yw says:
so you think i really stupid ?
len len says:
no. at least u only help him find afew
len len says:
haha
yw says:
so if i find a lot that mean i stupid
yw says:
?
len len says:
erm. ok la. u kind ma
yw says:
YES!
yw says:
that's the right word
yw says:
what stupid
len len says:
who say u stupid sia. nobody say u lor. lol
len len says:
actually i act only lor. i wanted to say u stupid but i scare
len len says:
i scare u sad
len len says:
so i say u kind
yw says:
ELEN YUEN!
yw says:
YOU IDIOT!
len len says:
but u are stupid
len len says:
LOL
yw says:
i where got stupid ?
len len says:
cos i idiot den u stupid lor
len len says:
we are stupid idiot
yw says:
you stupid idiot. what we. no we
len len says:
hahahaha
len len says:
funny

another funny friend. lol.

Kelly says:
why i 12 year old nobody want my number :(
len len says:
HAHAHA
len len says:
u 12 years old got put make up ???
Kelly says:
i 12 year old dont know what the fuck is make up
Kelly says:
i only know colour pencil
len len says:
YALOR! wtf sia nowadays
Kelly says:
omfg
len len says:
omg i think i very old
len len says:
they born in 1996 ?!
len len says:
i cannot accept the fact
Kelly says:
elen
Kelly says:
i realize that u can't accept alot of facts
Kelly says:
lol
len len says:
LOL

and xueying got a smelly! haha.

len len says:
where u went today ?
Xueying says:
LOL. i saw your blog just now.
Xueying says:
i went NUH.
Xueying says:
then i sleep whole day
len len says:
ya. we call u and u was like half dead
Xueying says:
ya i damn tired siol. lol. i cannot sleep cuz i never bring my smelly to his house. then i roll until 9am, suddenly 12.30 must wake up alr.
Xueying says:
lol.
Xueying says:
IM SO BORED
Xueying says:
where you go today?
len len says:
smelly ? wtf is smelly ?
len len says:
hahahahahaha
Xueying says:
my 18 year old pink pillow.
Xueying says:
lol
len len says:
pink ? are u sure ?
len len says:
u love pink AHA
Xueying says:
i dont. it was pink since i was young
Xueying says:
no choice
Xueying says:
you go and buy orange one for me?
Xueying says:
i just need the cover
Xueying says:
lol
len len says:
cannot. cos the pink one is 18 years old. if i buy u the orange one not pei liao.
Xueying says:
neh-mind. i'll still love it k.

len len says:
so u brought it to sauce's hosue everyday ?
len len says:
*house
Xueying says:
no la. i also never everytime go his house. he dont let me bring.
Xueying says:
lol
len len says:
why ? cos smelly ?
len len says:
lol
Xueying says:
NOPE.
Xueying says:
but id ont know why
Xueying says:
haha
Xueying says:
where you going tmr?
len len says:
i dunno sia. yw ask me go tpy lor
len len says:
go work with her
len len says:
lol
Xueying says:
LOL
len len says:
OH YA
Xueying says:
wtf, what time?
len len says:
i said i wake up call her
len len says:
anyway
len len says:
nixon's friend say u cute sia!!!!!!!!!
Xueying says:
who is nixon's friend
Xueying says:
LOL
len len says:
i dunno. but i think not handsome one
len len says:
haha
Xueying says:
okay. then you help me tell him that im an ugly freak
Xueying says:
HAHA
len len says:
no leh
len len says:
i go and tell him u are hot
len len says:
LOL
len len says:
i told him u have long legs and long body
len len says:
but den he said why i describe u like a 7-up character ?
Xueying says:
HAHA
Xueying says:
FIDO DIDO?
len len says:
YA THATS IT !
len len says:
i dunno wth is that
Xueying says:
lol
len len says:
u playing poker ?
len len says:
haha
Xueying says:
no. poker is so sian

Xueying says:
i dont know what to do now

OKAY BYE BYE BYE i know i am lame cos i really got nothing to do so i laughing alone. wth

my sleeping time is like weird.. i slept at 8 in the morning, woke up at 12 noon. wth ? and slept at 9pm, woke up in the morning at 7. oh man..........................................

i better enjoy this type of life, before i start to work. haha :)

okay, whatever that has happen, already happened. i myself also dont wish to see friendship turning into hatred. maybe its takes time to heal everything, or it takes time for all of us to sit down chilling together again. yes, really need time...

anyway i was out with my family ytd. was raining so heavily outside. back home and i slept at 9pm. cos i`m too tired.

okay right.. things are getting worse i guess ? what i post about is not against you. but yet you're so sarcastic. whats wrong with you ? i dont hate you. i just feel weird. will u ever understand what i`m feeling ?????????????????????????????????????? you will never. so, i dont see any reasons for u to hate me. and if u do, u are a fucking retard.

and, who is your true friend that always stand by you ???

another thing. what makes things worse is about some fucking random ppl. are you amoung us ? do u know everything ? why u wan to be so kpo ? ended up let ppl shoot u back. damn stupid. its not ur fucking business anyway. wtf

and, u are fucking trying to make ppl friendship worsen. you can FUCK OFF, bitch.

because, you're NONE of us. fuck.

okay kelly brought me up on an expressway. damn nice i like!

i am very very very happy today!!!!!!

hehe

anyway, dont think anything can affect me. because now i am a happy girl. other ppl makes me happy :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

If something does not consist of you, jolly well SHUT THE FUCK UP.

I can tell you something. YOU ARE FUCKING DISGUSTING.
haha, everybody agree. :)

okay i am very happy today. i lepak with xueying yinwen and kelly and we laugh like hell. cos we are laughing at each other's stupidness. haha. it reminds me of 2 years back when the 4 of us everytime lepak altogether sharing things together.

i hope siting will join us tmr.

shake some stress away. lol.

i look so fat here omg

woke up in the morning, sleep in the evening, wake up in the midnight, sleep in the morning, wake up at midnight again.

what kind of life is this ?

okay i went for touch up today since i`m up so early.

damn pain my god.

and i bought a magic hat. LOL

later i`m gonna follow my bro to fetch my mum form work and gonna repair my heels.

haha.

club on sat ?? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

I love this song. geeeeeeeeeeeeeee :):):)

okay now i cant get to sleep. its fucking 1pm right now. wtf right. and nobody is online. haha. i`m the only sucker.

well i read xueying's new blog. she is true, she is correct. nobody wants things to turn up like this, as for me, i have also never ever thought that things will end up like this.

as for the account of the 1 year plus relationship between me and kelvin, we do shared love. but of what the things he did after we broke up, he's not the same person anymore. so i can say, he's fucking not worth it. but why am i so heartbreak ? just because of the happy memories and i committed.

as on the account of the 6 years friendship, we've been thru everything together, and stand by for each other too. who will bear to see this thing happen ? we have so much fun back in secondary school days. how united we were, the 6 of us, nobody can forget.

but now it happen amoung us. no its not us, its just the 2 of us. and somemore it happen for a reason because of guys, bustard. i have said before, no guys will spoil our friendship. but now, nobody will fucking understand this feeling of what i`m going thru. people will understand, unless this happens to them.

it seriously feels uncomfortable. to see ur own good friend going along with ur just broke off ex boyfriend. breaking up is pain. but seeing ur best friend going with ur ex boyfriend is double the pain. i am going thru triple. no not triple. but forever. because i just broke off, i cry. 1 month later i knew about it, i fucking cry like a dog. what can i do besides crying ? whacking ? killing ? commit suicide ?

its not i`m stopping ppl for being together. but it just hurts. it is like an example, what you're using now, is what i`ve used before. correct ? it goes to everything. for what fuck i`ve used it before and u go take it ? its not that we dont know each other. already said its 6 years friendship. dont tell me u dont feel weird ? to use something that ur good friend used before ? and going thru what i've gone thru before ? and 1 more, what if 1 day u all break up, and some random ppl asking us, hey who's your ex boyfriend ? and both of our answers is 'kelvin'. fuck you. i hate this. sharing boyfriends ? haha. yes kelvin will be proud la ? but i feel so fucking pathetic. because there is fucking so many fucking guys out there. why him ? worth it ?

and u choose this that u know will hurt this friendship. worth it ?

worth it anot ??? why dont think more abit ???

example 1 day i found 1 fucking rich fucking handsome fucking treat me like his world boyfriend, and walk pass both of you, what will u feel ? wont u feel " oh man elen already got better guys but i`m still taking over her past ". and will u think the other way round ? actually you are the one that can have better guys, and i might be the one still holding on to kelvin. right ? who knows ?

actually i wanted to hold on to this friendship. the only thing i give up is what u know ? before that i ask u do u have feel towards kelvin? you said no. i ask u to tell honestly. u still said no. and somemore u can tell me u all go out but nothing going on between u both. and the next day ? u both are together. WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT IS THIS ?

if you said yes earlier on, i wont feel so disappointed.

you once go thru this feeling, saying u hate to act friendly, hate to act happy. me too. i HATE it. thats why i choose not to face it.

you all can say i think alot. and u all can say i dont make sense. or u all can say i am selfish. and i know ppl sure will say me wan sympathy. whatever. I ALREADY FUCKING NO PRIDE. so many things happen, my pride has surrender. do you think i still fucking care ? because what had happen already gives me a phobia. an image that everytime i close my eyes i see it. it is a nightmare. it hurts that i forever cannot forget. and how pathetic am i to only use the happy past of me and kelvin to make myself happy ? i dont believe the word trust anymore. my life had turn upside down.

do you think saying " wish u both all the best " is easy to come out from my mouth ??

okay i`m typing this out is not against any people. and i`m not trying to say is on anybody's fault. this is the only way i type out how i feel towards you. i hope u will understand. but lastly what i have to say is, my girl, be smart, seriously.

my meaning of smart is not those meaning of what guys want, cos i already dont care. my meaning of smart is think smart of what your decision is.

i am so happy today ....................... :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

because Nixon is soooooooooooooooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet :)
hehe

clubbing is clubbing. there is no love in clubbing. haha.

all my friends are very sweeeet tooooooo.
they order milo peng for me without asking me when we go eat. LOL
because this is what kelvin always do.
hahahahaha.
thats why i love my friends.. :) they stand by me and make me laugh until stomach cramp on everything they do. espcially saying ppl ugly LOL
haha whatever

thanks to all my friends.
the day after i broke up, kelly is the one who accompany me every night up til today, and so on. :)
and xueying, yinwen, lester, jerry. u all make me smile :)

happy?

angry or sad..

i am very happy y ??? hehe

i`m so excited to club tmr hehehe

=D =D =D =D =D

but on the other hand i`m very sad.

i miss the past ...

for u :

i really love 2008. especially octorber. my greatest year of my life.

i felt very very fortunate.

but everything is over.

the world change, people around also will change.

nvm la, at least i am once fortunate.

we were once living on each other's soul.

doing everything together.

you are the sweetest. you are the most wonderful bf i ever had. :)

we're once so loving that this is the fact that we both cannot deny.

ok whatever.

everything change, so bad so bad, hurt so bad.

now, its time for me to grow up and its time u have your freedom.

=)

you will find ur true happiness. i will find mine.

all the past will be kept in my heart, memoriess. =)

all the best :)

..................................

i am happy. just because i got before. chen jing yong you.

i will kan de kai. =)

i only using the past to make myself happy. haha.

but nvm, i go club also very very happy. lol haha.

pathetic elen :'(

womanizer women womanizer

you're a womanizer, oh womanizer oh you're womanizer baby

you you you ah

you you you ah

womanizer womanizer womenizer

boy dont try to front

i, i know just just what u ah ah ah

boy dont try to front

i, i know just just what u ah ah ah

oh ~ u got me going

oh~ u're oh so charming

oh~ but i cant do it

oh~ you womanizer

HEHE

i am down with flu the whole day today.

i hope i will get better tmr. :)

i`m addicted to C. :)

its party again

shawty got low low low low low low low low :)

i am a suay cheebye

why ? why all the bad things keep happen to me ?

from the start of 2009 bad things keep coming non stop.

i even lost my beloved bf, i lost everything.

hurting things keep coming to me.

what on earth did i do wrong ??

why let me suffer all these shits..

its so pain..

i am useless, i sucks, i am a fucking failure.

its so fuck up, i see darkness everyday.

all the bad things have mark an image in my brain that i really cant forget

sometimes all these images will appear in my mind. i`m so scare to see.

i`m so afraid of so many things right now.

its just the start of the year, i will prepare more of the worse shit that will happen in the future.

when will i ever see sunshine again ??

when can i laugh happily again ??

i love zouk

i love phuture

i love zouk

i love phuture

i love zouk

i love phuture

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

friendship last, instead of love.

you choose love, to hurt this friendship.

i`ve endure alot, and i`ve been trying very hard to save this friendship.

i have no chioce, but to say something.

this guy, u can have it. u're fucking the second hand obviously. haha. and hey, why keep saying sorry to me ? whats done is done, no point hurting someone and keep saying sorry, i despise you. oh ya, u still yet to thanks me for knowing him sia. i will reply u a welcome =)

and anyway, u said u are fan jian that day, at first i really dont want to have this thinking on u, but now yes, i totally agree. you are! people aiming for what u should know. shamless!

i will see how long u both will last.

all the best ah!

and for now, i seriously need to thanks u for showing me your true colors.

and i dont mind losing 1 friend. its worth it. =)

sorry, you choose it this way.

" i don need u to trust me for now also "

this is what u said.

you choose this way, i will do it.

and i seriously dont wish to see any trouble on kelvin.

i am trying my best to prevent.

i hope both will know how to think.

but i have 1 word : Shameless

what is friend ?

friend act dumb ?

fuck up.

i still hear your voice when you sleep next to me

i still feel your touch in my dreams

forgive me my weakness but i dont know why

without you it's hard to survive

cos everytime we touch, i get this feeling

and everytime we kiss i swear i can fly

can't you feel my heart beat fast

i want this to last

need you by my side

cos everytime we touch, i feel the static

and everytime we kiss i reach for the sky

can't you feel my heart beat so

i can't let you go

want you in my life

your arms are my castle

your hug is my sky

they wipe away tears that i cry

the good and the bad times we've been through them all

you make me rise when i fall

cos everytime we touch, i get this feeling
and everytime we kiss i swear i can fly
can't you feel my heart beat fast
i want this to last
need you by my side
cos everytime we touch, i feel the static
and everytime we kiss i reach for the sky
can't you feel my heart beat so
i can't let you go
want you in my life

=(

i know our relationship has come to an end which nothing can save it back.

but i miss you still bi. =(

i need you seriously. i need you so save me from alot of things..

sian. my life is like havoc.

because whatever i do, nobody cares.

so what for i care so much ? fuck care.

i wonder why some guys can put down a relationship so easily..

just because another person appears ? or totally no feelings. or all because of quarrels ?

but what about all the love we share ?

ZOUK ytd!

with xueying, kelly, dan zi, jerry and their friends.

marlboro supporters.

danzi jerry elen xueying lester

everywhere i go

memories everywhere.

even is just eating a chocolate.

its not easy to forget. really not easy.

cos we did so many things together, so close, too close that its hard to let go.

fuck it.

at this type of period, i need friends beside me.

i am very fortunate, i have many friends with me helping me to go thru.

jerry is very very irritating, but i still love him. because althou he keep purposely using kelvin and R6 to irritate me, and keep purposely sing xin bu liao qing to me, but how he do it is the only way that makes me laugh.

thanks to all of u who accompany me everynight lepaking. and joking all the way. u all are great :)

sometimes in life, u learn ur mistake after u lost something.

because after u lost it, den u realised that actually there are things u should do and there are things u should not do.

but its too late. i`ve lost it.

because i do things that i should not do and i didnt do things that i should do.

i really regret.

but its all too late. things already happen.

let fate decide everything :)

haha. i sounds so complicated.

but fuck care me. haha.

does saying sorry will heal the hurt ?

yes. i have no rights to control people from doing anything. i seriously have no rights.

1 is my ex boyfriend, 1 is my best friend.

what can i do ? can anybody tell me ? does anybody understand my feelings ?

it really hurts deeply. damn deep. damn pain.

in the past of what u did, and everytime u quarrel with me, i dont share with all my friends.

just because i dont want them to have bad impression on you.

but what u do now, already shows out everything.

kelvin, u have not change at all.

i will act as nothing happened, strongly.

i quit pepper plus. today is my last day. i will be free for like so long. i think of u.

i wanted to watch movie. i think of u.

i wanted to eat ajisen. i think of u.

i wanted to go suntec. i think of u.

i wanted to do so many things with u,

but my u is gone.

now what should i do ?

i woke up every morning feeling so lost, every night before i sleep i feel so alone.

i miss u too much that i dream of u everyday.

really too much ='(

i thought after a break up, time will heal the hurt.

but the longer time i take, the more hurt i get.

i thought i will get better day by day, but i`m feeling more sad day by day.

wtf.

we shared so many things together, we have so much memories.

why is it so easy for u to let go ?