i wanna explain, about my previous post.

u all readers must be thinking what i did inside my room that midnight right ? haha.

u all must be thinking that i brought any guy up to my house and have sex inside my room and my mother suspect me right ?

LOL.

NO LAH.

i smoke inside my room and my mum smell the srtong smoke smell. wtf.

i am very stupid, elen.

luckily xueying sms me today and tel me that my previous post sounds weird, that i bring guy to my house and did "something" inside my room. LOL.

but today, i tell my mum the truth that i smoked.

her eyes become so teary, she nearly cried. ='(

after that i send her a few smses, i apologise to her and tel her i dont want to see her sad.

she tel me that she dont want her heart to get hurt again, she want me to treasure myself.

yes mummy, i dont want to see you cry again because of me. because i love you. ='(

you trusted me and let me go out late at night, reach home in the morning. and u still left rice for me to eat when i`m back home. u were already very disappointed in me when i cant promote to sec5, and now i still quitted school in ite and go to work. u dont like me to go clubbing but u still allow me to go, because i told u i`m still young to enjoy. i am becoming from bad to worse. i am only 17. sigh.

i am sorry.

now, i feel like crying laaaa..

='(