t.i.r.e.d ......

they dont understand.
from tmr monday onwards i have to work monday,wednesday,friday,saturday and sunday.
fuck. i have school! working on weekdays halfday is ok for me. but the thing is, they want me to come straight after school no matter what time i end. means i dont have the time to rest at all.
so only tuesday and thursday i am free ? no, not free AT ALL. because i still have school. free only after school? no, i have driving lesson. and, tuesday and thursday is the days i end school at 4 plus. thats the only days i can book my driving lesson? BUT, not say i wan book den book wan. they might not have slots wan. fuck. no need to say boyfriend already. fucking no time for him at all. only after work la ? thats all ? sat and sun ? is his off days. but i have to work. i cant accompany my bf. nbcb

not say i dont wan to work. but its ridiculous. i am just a part-timer. if i`m not schooling i dont mind working full 7 days per week for u. but now, i am still schooling. i wake up much more earlier den them and after that i have to go to work straight. wtf is this. like that sometimes i too tired and i dont have the feeling to go to school. 6 more weeks of school i will graduate. if i always pon school they will debar me. and dont let me sit for exams. den, this whole year i wasted 1 year again la ?? u all ask me to chiong all the way. for what??? after i graduate i have my wholelife to work and chiong! for what i spend my youth days working and making myself suffering but not enjoying ?? knn

how i wish i can stay at the last 3 days of my holidays forever. eat, sleep, lepak, go out. no need to think about everything. but no more. nightmares after sweet dreams.

working is not easy.
but schooling and working is fucking not easy.

stress.


i know there are people out there who have much more problems den me.

but i just want to vent all out.
i hate myself