i wish i have a lappy/netbook, so i can update whatever i want on my long bus journey rides.

took a straight bus home after i went bugis today after work.

i love long rides, because i can sit down, listen to songs, and have random thoughts running in my mind.

well i step into the bus i kinda regretted it because it was damn pack. lol.

and at the moment i really wish i have a car of my own, i can just drive home alone myself.

anyway from young, like at the age where i know how to observe guys, the very first thing i observe from a guy is his 'gentlemen'. i think it is very basic manner a guy should learn?

just something that ran thru my mind while i`m in the bus. lol.

anyway, just gotten my pay today.

i feel so fucked up and such a failure that at the age of now, my pay cant survive me. although i am only stepping into the twenties.

i am seriously not satisfy with my fucking pay.

okay, if talking about qulifications, i only have Nitec cert. i have been thinking of going to Mdis. but what, the fees are killing. i dont wish to use my parent's money.

and that makes me take 1 step back and dont want to study anymore, i might as well work for money.

i have to pay my hp bills, i have to give my mum money, i have my own entertainment and i have to top up my ezlink card which is 3 days $10?! how do i have extra savings??

and i hate it when people like non-smokers coming to me and tell me "eh den dont smoke lah! smoking so expensive, den u everytime complain no money. dont smoke lor."

- are you a smoker??

life is always the same. monday to fri work. 9 to 6. routine is always the same.

sat to sunday, stay at babi's house.

i assume that my life will continue like that in the next 35 years.

die.

everyday i countdown to my knock off time.

from the first part i countdown to lunch time, second i countdown to knock off time.

when the time reached 4pm, i feel like killing myself.

2 hours more is like a torture to me.

sounds silly, but that is working life..

really no life.

how i wish i have programmes everyday after work, or at night, either dinner, chilling, movies or shopping, and taking the last train/bus home. (i dont mind walking alone admiring the town, or sitting down alone looking at ppl passing by and how they dress or something since i`ve done that before)

how i wish i can party on every wed & sat, til the sunrise.

but all these seems hard.

tmr is 1 of my colleague last day here. another one just left last week.

humans are humans, althought we're only working with each other for like 2mths plus, but this feelings are hard to let go.

especially when we're seeing each other everyday, thinking of where to go for lunch, gossiping, complaining of boyfriends, thinking of clubbing together, disturbing, laughing at each other etc etc..

why do humans only gets closer and closer until their times have their limits?

i will miss you 2 girls ❤

what is a relationship?

why does quarrels always started out at the same problem?

how does a relationship work in order to maintain it and make it last?

nobody will ever teach me this unless i go through myself.

and i love mind games.

BYE. i`m in a bad mood thats why i blogged so much out.

and i hate what i`m feeling right now. fuck it, please go away :(

very random, i really love this song 'Halo' by Beyonce.
and lastly, a random pic of me.

nights